What the helllllllll am I doing?! I’m so ridiculously stupid.
Thank God Criggles is visiting this weekend.
“Today is a good, good day. Thank you for joining us on this good, good day.” ~Dave. Yes yes. It can be a good, good day, always.
I’ll Back You Up May 15, 2009
I remember thinking
Sometimes we walk
Sometimes we run away
But I know
No matter how fast we are running
Somehow we keep
Somehow we keep up with each other
+ Deb made an interesting post. Well, it wasn’t extremely enlightening, but it was strange cuz I had been thinking about a related topic tonight as well. I think life as a female is very different than that of a male. The things we have to put up with on a daily basis are things men may never have to encounter. Do men have a sense for who’s single and who’s attached? Can they tell when they need to tone down the flirting? Or is it us females? Do we give off a vibe, an invitation? Hahah. Or maybe it’s just all in the facebook status. That would be a simple explanation for everything….
+ Getting ready for grad school is kicking my ass fast. In the last few days I learned of all these things I needed to do for them w/in the next week. A bunch of certifications, fingerprinting at the central office, letters from me, letters from teachers, forms, forms, and forms. Gha! Did I mention? I walk June 15th, I start classes June 17th. Thank you, UCSD, for graciously giving us a one day vacation. I do appreciate it and will not need recovery time. Ooof. They couldn’t at least give us half a week? 
+ The teacher at my high school told me that I hold students’ attention when I’m at the board cuz I have a Vanna White complex and they like looking at me. That upsets me. I want them to want to learn and to be thinking! Arggg. That’s extremely frustrating. I’m up there busting my butt trying to teach them admist all the chaos those students have gone through this year, and then I’m told the kids aren’t really listening to me… I hope someone’s learning…
+ Again, as I’m coming to the end of my math career (for the second time), I’m finding myself fearful of missing it. There’s a strange comfort in learning math. It’s humbling and it reminds me of how much more is out there that I don’t know, haven’t seen, and may never discover. I wonder how much of everything we do is like that. There’s so much outside of San Diego I haven’t seen, and there’s also so much in San Diego I haven’t seen. Just this year, I’ve gotten to spend a lot of time in and get to know three different communities in SD that are each different from the others and different than the Del Mar and La Jolla lifestyle I’ve been so comfortably enclosed in all my life.
Recently May 10, 2009
+ I have 60 eggos in my freezer and they’re so delicious!! I’m a picky eater but I could eat the same 3 meals every day and be completely content.
+ The teacher at the high school who had quit is back. Her return is only going to bring on greater chaos and more resistance from the students. There’s only a few weeks left of school, there really was no need for her to come back. One girl was crying. Another students stuck on the door, “Ms. S is back! Run!” Everyone was talking crap. Oy. What a rough year it’s been there. This is going down in history books for me. I’ll be telling my children about when I had to student teach in the most disastrous classroom ever. In a way I’m lucky though. I know a lot of things I shouldn’t do as a teacher.
+ Sungod is on Friday. I’m not excited and not sure if I want to go crazy that day. I still need to teach..
+ Ooo. I need to buy Dave tickets. Bye!
The Song That Jane Likes May 6, 2009
So, I feel like I need to make a post although I’m not sure where to even begin updating.
+ I absolutely hate school. Lol. I can’t wait to be done with undergrad and then done with grad. I’m finding that after a year without math, I’ve completely forgotten how to study! By the end of last year, I had it down to an art, and now, I’m trying to study for the midterm I have on Friday and it seems overwhelming how much I need to know. Eh. Just need to pass though so I can walk in June!
+ Teaching is going ok. Yesterday was my first day back at the middle school after their month long spring break. I forgot how exhausting it is to teach two periods at the middle school and then to have to go straight to the high school to teach two more periods there. I’m still going back and forth about whether I prefer high school or middle school. I like that I can talk to the high school kids in a more adult way, whereas with my middle school kids, I feel like they’re children. Maybe it’s cuz I’m working with 6th graders who really are very young. I know for certain that Algebra is my favorite to teach. I think most students struggle with Algebra because it’s their first time really getting into the abstracts of math. Eh, I don’t know…I like unfolding Algebra for the kids, and it’s so beautiful when they get it. ;P
+ My parents got back from Asia a couple days ago. I wanna go to China! And Taiwan! Maybe winter break next year. It’s nice having my parents home. Takes a load off of me…
+ My UCSD advisor’s coming to watch me teach next week. Oh God!!!!!! I’ve had a lot of ppl see me teach and it’s usually not a big deal at all, but this actually counts for something! He’s coming to see if I’m ready to have my own classroom next year and teach 3/5 time. I think I’m ready, I hope he thinks I’m ready, and I hope I can get a job! I talked to Cari last week and she told me they needed an Algebra teacher next year and that she’d talk to the principal for me! Woohoo. I get to know tomorrow how that went. I would looove to be back to CHS next year.
+ It’s slowly starting to warm up here in SD. I love when it’s beautiful out. 
+ Memorial day can’t come soon enough.
