Black Balloon June 16, 2008

Today’s been a hell of a day. It started out great and then it got to be really stressful.

• Got woken up this morning by a call from Frank inviting me to go to the US Open with him today. Awesomeeee. Lol. Met up with him and his friend, Eric, at Frank’s place, and we got lunch, then headed in. There was a crazy mass of people there. Lol. Man. And following Tiger Woods around the course is madness. Hahaha. Lots of fun though. I got sunburned on my shoulders
• Left the US Open around after Tiger’s 11th hole, but I went back to Andrew’s place to watch it on TV while chilling with TJ, Shaw, and Vince. I left just after Tiger took his first shot at the 18th hole to go pick up Andrew from the airport. Totally missed the birdie (although TJ did call to tell me after it happened! thanks!), but I did get to see it replay on espn.
• Watched the Lakers game!!! Yes!!! Oh gosh. If we want to win the finals though, it’s gonna be a tough tough road ahead.
• After the game, life got stressful. I started thinking and over-thinking everything. I’m worried that I’m making the wrong decisions in life or that I’m approaching life with too naive an outlook.
• I never give myself a break in life. I’m very curious about the “singles” world. To be alone and vulnerable in such a way, to be confident yet insecure, to face putting yourself out there for someone else. I find it very liberating to be alone. I find that I have more freedom in a lot of aspects of my life.
• I also like the idea that when I’m single, I can’t screw anything up. I won’t say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing, use the wrong tone, not spend enough time in something, spend too much time in another thing, not care enough, not want enough, not listen enough, not love enough. I can’t do anything that would make me break up with me.
• I want to be single so I can learn to love myself. I want to be single so I can learn to see myself the way everyone else does. I want to be single so I can sit by myself and watch the world spin around me without someone next to me telling me what to think. I want to think for myself and learn for myself. I want to fuck up and learn on my own without people telling me how life should be.

Love is a Place June 14, 2008

Mmmm. I’m back in my own bed after a crazy finals week. It’s not that I didn’t love my set up during finals, but there’s nothing like my own bed.

Math 170B final was really hard. Math 104 final was ok. Got an A in Psych. Horrah. School’s OVER!!!

I’m moving out in a week. Less than a week now. I have a load of stuff I still need to get together before then. I’ve been putting off thinking about it until after finals, but now I feel super rushed. It’s ok. I’ll take care of everything on Monday after this weekend. I still haven’t figured out how I want to furnish/decorate the place, but I have made decisions on other important matters.

Hm…I’m trying to think if anything exciting happened this week. Not really I guess.

• Lakers lost. Game on Sunday. Oh my God. I’m gonna miss it! Coppa, I’m calling you for the score!
• I start work for that camp thing next Thursday! Holy crap. 7:30am-noon Monday-Friday. I’ll never survive.
• I start daddy work next Saturday. Have to survive this one..

Ahhhh. Lots to do, lots to do. Congratulations to everyone for surviving another brutal school year. Lol. Summer will be sweeeeet. Call me after the 20th to chill! :D

All Along the Watchtower June 3, 2008

Ok, so, I kind of don’t want to be here, but I’ve put this off and if I don’t write about it now, I’m going to forget (or think that I already did).

On Sunday I went to the park with a buncha people, and Guilder was my new teacher for the day. It’s great throwing around with ppl who are pros cuz I get to learn a little something new from each person. Guilder though, he changed my life! Hahaha. Turns out I’m left handed in frisbee. It’s weird cuz I always knew I was supposed to be left handed in everything, but I never did find anything my left hand does better than my right. It’s still a little bit awkward and my throws definitely aren’t as strong, but it’s cool. Lol.

Anyway, that’s all I wanted to say. Have a good week 10. Summer’s almost herrreee!!

Suspension June 1, 2008

Sundays are wonderful. I’ve been awake for nearly an hour, but have not felt the need to get out of bed. Lol. I just updated my facebook profile and have nothing better to do than chill here….although, I do wish other ppl would post…it’s fun reading blogs. Lol.

• Woke up bright and early yesterday at 9:30 to go play math frisbee. Didn’t play math frisbee. Lol. It’s ok. It’s way too hardcore for me. I ended up taking Penny to do the dog park, went home, showered, got coffee, went back to school, and got to catch the last part of the game. Lol. Mmm. The best part definitely came after. ;P
• Oh, I also got a nice SWEATY group hug from Andrew, Andre, and Guilder. Oh Guilder. Lol. The ass that mooned me. The sweaty chest that left its mark.
• Had McDonalds for lunch with Andrew. We swapped childhood McDonalds stories and shared our appreciation for zong zi (Deb, I told him about Kevin Reyes. I hadn’t thought about that night in so long. So hilarious! Gong!!).
• After that, we went to his lab. I screwed around with 170B stuff while Andrew made cancer or something. Lol. Actually, I got to do stuff too! Let’s see, I took pink water out and I put pink water back in. I try to understand when Andrew’s explaining it, and I do, kinda, but I think I’m missing the big picture. Something about cell babies and warming up the milk. Haha. ;P
• After that, went to Crossroad and checked out George’s new apartment. Way nice!! Lol. It’s a 2 bdrm with loft. Super quiet. His room has a perfect view of the 805 south freeway onramp. Hahaha. New traffic checker? Hellll yeah. Hahaha. Just kidding, George. I wouldn’t do that to you.
• Had a freaking feast when I came home. I was so full I couldn’t sit up when Irene, Wayne, and I were playing electronic monopoly. I was like, an egg…couldn’t sit on my ass. Had to tilt over and lean on one side. Hahaha. Now that I type that out, it sounds like Penny. Oh, Penny Baby. My fat love. Lol.
• Knocked out before midnight and thus ended a fun and wonderful Saturday. Smiles all around.
• Happy JUNE!!!! The countdown begins!